Absolute Wannabe

I've tried to start this post several times over the past few weeks. For one thing, it's incredibly difficult to write after not doing so for months (seven, to be exact). It's another thing entirely to admit that I don't know what I'm doing, where I'm going, or who I am. That being said, I've done it before. Two years ago,  I posted a video on YouTube entitled "I'm Not Sure" . Now, if you've never seen this before, I completely understand. I just watched it for the first time since I posted it, and it was cringeworthy. This is not only because it's weird to watch 20 year old me go through her YouTube phase, touch her face too much, talk with some strange inflection in her voice. Well, that's certainly part of it. Really, though, it's because nothing's changed. At the end of the video, I say I'm grateful that I have a year and a half left of college to "figure it all out". That year and a half has passed. I ...