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School started a week and a half ago. This year, I'm faced with the typical new things, like classes, work load, schedule, and teachers, but I have also (re)joined the choir and the speech team, and we have a new volleyball coach. While I am excited about all of this new stuff, I can't help feeling like a scared little freshman, not knowing what to do at all and diving into whatever I can while screaming bloody murder. The start of school makes everyone feel really scared, agitated, depressed, or all of the above, I think, and I am most certainly no exception. I have been very mopey and angry and screamy and cry-y lately, and I have definitely been taking refuge in God, music, coffee, and exercise now more than anything. While I sit here, once again stressed and not helping myself by procrastinating and writing a blog post, I just wonder if I'm the only one who feels this way about a little thing like school. I'm sure I'm not, because there are billions of people out there on the planet and while my personality may be unique, I don't think emotions are. Let me know, my beautiful audience of -2 (speaking of which, really sad that my annoying twitter campaign to get Kate Nash to read my blog about her failed. Either she saw it and didn't give a flipinflap or just didn't see it at all). See, it's not that I hate school, I'm just worried. Since I lost my psychic abilities in the 3rd grade, I no longer know what's going to happen this year. Maybe that's a good thing. Really, this post has no purpose, I just wanted to vent. Also, please read my other posts/comment. Nobody's read anything in a while and I'm losing my self-esteem...just kidding, but I do have a lot to say and would like people to know that I have more to say this particular awfulness. I would also like to know what people think and I don't have a lot of comments. Thanks!!

Abby, Absolute Wannabe

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  1. EHendricksonSeptember 15, 2011 at 9:05 PM

    While I don't have much to add about your school feelings (it's been a while since I was in high school), I want you to know that your anxiety and venting are universal concepts. Don't lose your self-esteem and don't stop writing. You've got a wonderful writing voice, and blogs are made for such voices to be heard.

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  2. Absolute WannabeSeptember 16, 2011 at 6:55 AM

    Thank you os much!

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